this is going to be rant, be warned.

i just wanted to tell someone, anyone, how i feel. i'm furious, livid and totally and utterly raging. this sounds very childish but bare with me, today i was rejected for a job as a lifeguard at the pool. yeah boohoo jo get over it.
HEAR ME OUT! let me explain; i have been working for this company for two and a hlaf years. bending over backwards for them, but they tell me i'm not experienced enough.
this company has a unequal boy to girl ratio, not uncommon, but 3 girls to however many guys, especially in a swimming pool isnt just annoying, its stupid, impractical and actually dangerous.
and finally, these people are meant to be my friends, and whilst i know that can't or shouldn't factor into a interview and working environment BUT C'MON! i got butt f*cked and i know it, they know it, the whole staff force knows it.bum.f*cked.

and then my card got declined, icing on my moldy stale cake.

however, my ACTUAL friends, though many wont read this, have been absolute treasures, from the moment i told them about above events. they all knew how much time and effort i put into not only getting this job but also the company itself. they have been gems and without them i would have been a messy, angry teary puddle all day. my boyfriend has been equally supportive and he's not happy either, which is nice the whole guy protecting you thing

but most, i would like to aknowlegde my mother. we've not been to great (understatment) in the past few months but today she was my rock, she bailed me out and she bought my sweets (percy pigs try them, seriously) and she let me snot all over her shoulder. without a shadow of a doubt had she not been there today i wouldn't have been able to cope. i love her, even if i don't show it and i'm totally horrible to her like...all the time.

anyways, if you read this WELL DONE!